thru a glass looking onion

its the end of the year. time really flies. a yr ago, i was doing nothing juz like now. instead, for a change, i shall pen my tots. maybe its better than doing nothing.

lets see wat happened this yr. barely few weeks into 2005, i almost broke my ankle. maybe it was sign of things to come. strangely, tt nite i managed to dragged my foot to witness s’pore lifting the tiger cup n rush to the hospital after tt. after x raying, the doc gave a week mc. wow! i tot. the following wk, i wld be gone for reservist for 3 wks. in all, i got a mth break fr work. yeah, work. the place i nvr really wanted to be in.

i was unhappy there. but i dunno at who or wat. thankfully, i have frens there. now tt i’m leaving, i realised tt i’m leaving a huge part of my life behind. i nvr know tt there r pple( other than my frens) who value my existence there. i felt bad. can still remember crying on the nite tt i got the transfer. i was confused. i wanted it so badly but i feel sad wen i got it. hence, the cliche, u dunno wat u got til its gone. ha..pple come n go. i need to do wat i think is in my best interest.

anyway i shouldnt think too much bout it. i can still make new frens in my new sch. then again, when i saw my new colleagues, i began to wonder. wat if they dont like me. i saw familiar faces there but they have their frens. i cant possibly expect them to be with me. guess i need time to warm up. hate feeling lonely. nuff bout work. i still have a wife to come home to. my lovely wife. think i did neglect her sometimes. i’ll be nicer to her. promise.

on a personal note, i’m gg on a diet. hopefully i wld get to trim down to 75kg n be able to maintain it. having ‘yogi bear’ as a nickname is not tt glamorous. i failed miserably in 2005. i didnt lose a single kilo. i probably put on 1 or 2 more. sigh..

it hasnt been too bad a yr now tt i think abt it. think i made more frens this yr. liverpool won the champs league. hmm..tts all i suppose. quite sad dont u think? well if 2005 was bad, it can onli get better in 2006. fingers crossed.