thru a glass looking onion

caught this show some time back. what i like abt the show is not abt how it is justifying smoking. but abt how we tend to look at things. at least i can hear the other side of the story. i really like aaron eckhart in this show. anw, we’ve been told tt cigs are bad n all since we were little. tts the way things are.

this show could be fighting for chocolates n yet the impact would be the same. we perceive cigs as bad bcos its imbedded in us. hence, if u’re seen with one, you’re bad as well. if only the campaign against fast food is as strong the one against smoking, we prolly stop eating at the golden arches n tt colonel restaurant.

smoking is not for u to look cool or rebel. frankly, i dont think all of us shld smoke.

BUT….

its a matter of choice! choice! choice! when we understand y we do smthg, then we can justify it…or not. i may contradict myself here. anyway…..the bottomline is…

just dont listen to wat pple tell us to do. the choice is ours!

has been a while now. hardly go to frenster. now tt i hv a facebook. cant believe i’d sold my soul to the devil. sellout!!!!

oh no..not me..the man who sold the world…

hari raya is very different this year. this would be the first time i’m celebrating without my dad. i tot i would be sad but i guess i was wrong. it could be that i have lost the magic of the hari raya.

those who r close to me would know tt i dont believe in celebrating this special day. yes it is a holy day. but i juz feel that it is so fake. seeking forgiveness on this day makes no sense. if need to, why dont we just apologise whenever we made a mistake. then..there’s this thing abt apologising to pple we never for 1 whole year. (onli meet on this day). say sorry for wat. for the sake of it.

then again..i’m just glad tt i could celebrate. at least i have the choice to. for the less fortunate, i’m so sorry. but on this ocassion, we were all made to feel inadequate. maybe…it is time for us to rejoice!!!! even onli for 1 day.

eid mubarak everyone. may we keep the peace n love for one n all…insyallah

    spent the last holiday mostly at home. just the ocassional tea with frens and dinner with family. couldnt go with the guys to Berkelah for a hike. damn sad. wrong timing again. they probably think i’m avoiding them.

   eventually went to bkk with mai n her siblings. it has been a while i’ve gone on a holiday with pple other than mai. anyway they’re family. their parents must be happy that all of them are on holiday together. as there were 5 of us, taking cab would be very squeezy except for kikim who had to sit in front. (it was the most logical thing to do)

    bkk hasnt changed much since i came 3 yrs back. maybe a new shopping ctr or two. anyway, it was a just a shopping trip for us. hmm…for them actually. i was just tagging along. grabbed a few things here and there. i dont think i spent more than $100 on shopping. well, i didnt get anything for anyone this time. should i?

    came back just in time b4 skool started. manage to squeeze time to meet osman for a shisha session. been postponing for some time. he actually lives 2 blocks away but we had to go arab st to meet. scratching my head.

    now tt skool has started, its time for work n more work.

last wednesday marked the day i lost another friend. childhood fren. fragility of life means nothing can be taken for granted. i cant remember the last time i saw him. however, it was just sad to know he’s gone. the way he did just reminded me of something. there are pple who we love n those who love us. hence, cherish life!

it had been a hectic weekend as compared to last week. firstly, wifey was sick. so she was in bed all the time. couldnt even to go out to have dinner with her family. so end up staying at home all day on saturday. poor kikim.

actually i did go out for a while. to send my car to the workshop. apparently, i’ve been driving with one headlight. there, at the workshop, my mechanic asked me again when i’m gonna lower my car. frankly, i have no idea. there are juz too many mods to do tt i dont even know where to start. it didnt help tt i bot a new fone finally. so i guess any mod to the car will take a backseat.

was flipping thru the papers on sat and saw tt starhub was selling the fone at 100 bux cheaper at the roadshow at suntec. bloody hell. thankfully, i got the voucher so it wasnt tt bad. but i still feel tt i shld have waited a while longer. then again, how would i know?

after a long hiatus from football, i made a comeback today. in fact, i played 2 matches. one in the morning and the other in the afternoon. i onli played for abt 20 min in the first match. tt was b4 my boots gave way. spend the rest of the match on the sideline. sitting with pple i dont know.  after tt, went back to my moms place n borrowed my nephew’s boots. thank god it fits. went to play the other game at 3. crazy. anyway the stupid referee was late. n the other team had no enuff players. alamak waste time la. still, we lost. i had chances to score but…forget it.

i realise i cant play football tt much anymore. it juz create more pain…physically n emotionally. cant remember the last time i played in a winning team. worst, my body cant take it much longer. now my right achilles tendon is giving me problem also. hence, i no longer enjoy playing.

went cycling last nite. mai asked me to pick up her laptop from the office. so i grabbed the bike n cycle there. the rear tyre was rather deflated but i didnt have much time. decided to pump on the way back at the petrol kiosk. it was a nice ride at nite.  remionds me of the days when i still had the italian machine from the past.

so i finally got the petrol kiosk. there was this guy pumping his tyres while his wife was reading newspaper behind the car. then they had some argument. didnt really hear much as i was listening on my mp3. anyway, wth. none of my biz. so they left soon after n i get to pump finally.

but instead of pumping, the tyre got deflated. shit. tried a few times but failed. then there was this uncle who wanted to pump his tryes. i prolly looked stupid to him. he even told me tt i might overinflated the tyre. do i lok tt stupid? it was stated on the tyre tt i cld pump up to 50psi. ape je.

if he thinks tt i was a noob, i find him strange. he actually remove his tyre cap with a spanner. all 4 of them. i didnt know if i shld laugh as i was looking stupid myself.

in the end, i left tt place with the wounded cheetah. pushing it all the way home. it definitely wasnt a walk in the clouds.

a week into the new yr. the machine starts grinding and i’m getting into the groove. i’m done with resolutions that i never fulfilled. anyway, this will be the yr tt i’m gonna end my late twenties. so i guess, y not? so this yr, i wanna bring my weight to 75kg.

YES 75kg!!!!

i dont think its too much to ask rite? been trying to jog as frequently as i can. need to get into better shape b4 hitting gym. put on singlet last nite. my arm still look like an uncut lontong. long way to go still 

other than that, i think i defo need a new phone. i prolly the onli at work whose emits polyphonic ringtone. tts y i always put it on silent mode. hopefully i cld get the htc touch soon. no 3G. its ok. but it has wifi. si its good enuff. i’m not a techie so i dont think need all tt. as long i can call, sms, mms, play games, play music n vids. hmm…tt shld do it. n its slim.

maybe i would also need another pair of running shoes. i bot this adidas shoe recently. it looks the same like i wore thru out my jc days. but this one squeaks. reminds me of my nephew’s shoes when he was a toddler. been lookin at adizero chiba for a long time.

talking bout buying things, think the list would just go on n on. so for get it. oh, i need a new tv too. damn.

btw, a colleague of mine is resigning at the end of the mth. makes me feel like it too. deja vu. i dunno y i’m always looking for another job. but sad truth is, i’m still here. well, at least, i’m happier now. no more an angry young man.

sigh…one week down. 51 more to go..slowly slowly pedal, i say.

since i cant sleep, i shall carry on about another movie i caught recently. ACROSS THE UNIVERSE. as it has nothing much to do about the beatles(other than the songs), i was actually quite reluctant to catch it. since mai was working, i pretty much had nothing to do other than joining bob for the show. 

it was interesting how they manage to string the songs together and made it into a movie. the storyline may be too cliche but the cinematography was great. n it was a bit too long as it was slightly more than 2 hr. luckily there wasnt that many pple n we got a couple seat. so we took the liberty to lie down n enjoy the show.

i was touched towards the end of the show when they made a tribute to the beatles. altho it wasnt saville row, the last scene saw the band playing Dont Let Me Down at the roof top of a similarly coloured building which housed the apple studio. cool…

but til now, i’m still waiting for a biopic on the fab four. maybe we gotta wait til the remaining 2 are gone.

went to see alvin n the chipmunks on christmas eve. enjoyed the show even tho it wasnt animated. i like how they potrayed the chipmunks. alvin wasnt too ‘heroic’, simon wasnt too irritating and theodore was even cuter in the movie. love the part when they sang funkytown. the dance steps rock. i guess everyone has their own fave chipmunk. for me, alvin has always been mine. prolly cos he has an A on his shirt. same initial as me.

finally had the time to blog once again. 2008 is here but maybe its not too late to look back at ‘07. lets see…..seven things in 07.

1) longest mc

two mths off work sounds great but towards the tail end i was already feeling bored. but after gg back to work, i wish i could still be at home. shld have listen to the doctor and extend my leave. anyway, wats the point now?

2) work in the afternoon

finally i get to teach in the afternoon. YES!! no more waking up at crazy hours and trying to force myself to tuck in early each nite. no more dozing off at work. funny thing is, my colleagues still tell me tt i still look sleepy. watever. and yes, late nite football isnt a problem anymore.

3) 10 yr long

on 4/3/07, we celebrated our 10th yr anniversarry. brings back memory of A&W at hougang south (its known as kovan now). in our uniform. was wearing pants size 29. aah… how time flies.

4) went to Bali

got a surprise 3rd yr wedding anniversary present. on a trip to bali… wonderful place with even more wonderful pple. promise we’ll come back.

5) waiter..bill pls

won best dressesed at tcrs’ day dinner. had to rush to tt goddamn place. when i came, half the dinner was gone. wanted to come as a football manager but didnt looked good. end up coming as a waiter. finally, i got to wear the shirt i bot for my wedding. i must say most of the tcrs in my skool really know how to dress up. cool pple….

6) goodbye….

4/12/07 was a sad day for me n my family. between 8am to 1pm, my dad heaved his last breath. tho it wasnt unexpected, i still feel gutted when he’s gone. there are many things that i didnt get to do when he’s around. too late i think. there are some questions i juz need to ask myself..

y didnt i answer him when he called me tt nite? turn out it was the last time i heard him calling for me. he could onli be asking for a cup of water. y did i juz sneak out of the house juz to wash my bloody car? y cant i show him more love at the time when he needs the most? maybe i’m juz a selfish prick. or is it bcos of my mom constant babbling tt my bro is his fave son. i dunno really. but i did try to enjoy fishing to spend more time with him.

7) operacion ninja

being a dick tt i am, i went to japan abt week after my dad’s passing. well, we did try to change the flights n all but it wasnt possible. my aunt can say watever she wants. i dont think i need to explain anything.

have always wanted to go to japan. under the weird circumstances, i dunno whether i truly enjoyed the trip. i guess it was a fun place to be. getting lost in translation for once. sure its cold there in winter. she did a lot of shopping n i get to go to john lennon museum. interesting. juz another thing, i dunno y the japanese like clam phone so much. n wats with nintendo ds? dont they have sony psp? weird stuff. i’ve never nodded so much in my entire life.

anyway it was a great way to end the yr… juz the two of us.

Happy New Year!

love n peace, from me to u.